Honey, did I shower yesterday?

clevergirl38 — Mon, 06 Sep 2010 00:50:56 +0000

These last few days have been very hard for me to get through. My depression has resurfaced with a vengance. It has been difficult to get out of bed, let alone get anything accomplished. I have even resorted to trash talking myself to try to get motivated. In honor of football season starting and all. My sense of humor has abandonded me. My temper is set on hair trigger.

I tried to use positive psychology. I tried to stop talking bad to myself. But the depression is a trash talkin’ potty mouth. Then I realized that “self help” is crap. So my wasted time went down, but my mood is still foul.

I do believe my husband is fed up. How can a logical man deal with this banshee of discontent? Plus all of the yelling I have been doing when I point out every single one of his faults. I’m sure he can’t wait until this long weekend is over.

I know every body gets the blues now and then. My funks are black and oily. I am covered in toxic verbage and I cannot shake free. I think I showered yesterday, but I’m not 100% sure. Maybe hubby would know. If I ask, we’ll just get into another argument. Then he’ll tell me I can be happy if I want to be. And I will imagine punching him in the face. I know that can’t be good for our marriage. So maybe I won’t ask him if I showered yesterday. It’s not that important, right?

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Honey, did I shower yesterday?